I recently was challenged to ask people what five things they think about when they think of me. It was a very humbling experience that made me feel vulnerable. As I read the responses, it was a true blessing to see that others associated me with Christ. Evidence of exercising faith, being a Christian, and loving the Lord appeared in nearly every response. It made my heart and soul happy. More than anything, I want others to see Jesus in me.
I also was humbled by responses such as a woman of faith, a great wife, an amazing mother, a wonderful friend, and a joyful person. As I thought about each of those responses, my head did not swell with pride; instead, my heart broke. I began to ponder a very sobering thought.
It is so easy for us to look at the lives of others through social media posts or brief interactions with one another, but God knows us inside and out. God knows our hearts, our thoughts, and even our motives. He sees who we really are.
O Lord, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether. – Psalm 139:1-4
Tears started to flow down my face as I wondered what God thought of me. Does God agree with what others think of me? Does He see my faith? Is He pleased with me as a wife, mother, and friend? Does He find me joyful?
It was lovely to hear that others think so highly of me, but what matters most is what God thinks of me. This challenge definitely did not have the outcome intended, but I am ever so grateful for it. Thanks to this challenge, I was able to examine myself deeply and discover areas in my life that need improving.
When my life is over, it will not matter what others think of me. The only thing that will matter is what God knows about me. I am determined to spend the rest of my days, no matter how long or short they may be, living my life to please my Lord. When I reach Heaven’s gate, it will not be earthly people pronouncing my accolades but my Heavenly Father. When that time comes, my greatest desire is to hear Him say, “Well done, thou good and faithful servant; enter thou into the joy of thy Lord!”
by Crystal Collingsworth
